Forgive me for reading your messages on WhatsApp and allowing you to see, by the power of the double blue tick, that, despite noticing you’d taken the time to get in touch, I chose to ignore you by deliberately not replying.
Forgive me for seeing your incoming call and, having acknowledged your decision to reach out to me, I chose to ignore you by deliberately not answering.
Forgive me for dodging your eye contact at that all-important networking event, aka Let’s-See-If-There-Is-Anybody-In-Attendance-Who-Is-Worth-Pretending-To-Be-Interested-In-Just-To-See-If-Doing-So-Can-Have-Me-Level-Up-In-My-Career (event), and, when you came over and said a warm “hello”, I chose to behave as though you’re somebody not worth knowing by deliberately walking away from you in the direction of those regarded as ‘big wigs’.
Forgive me for assuming you’re okay with me picking you up and dropping you as and when it suits me, depending on the availability of those I want to hang out with, based on their social and professional status, whenever I reluctantly contact you after they have confirmed they’re unavailable but then, of course, I quickly swerve you (again) when their circumstances change.
Forgive me for telling you that my recent trauma has me feeling as though I don’t want to socialise with anybody, anywhere, anytime soon, but then, immediately afterwards, I consciously shared a video to my Instagram stories and WhatsApp status of myself and a few random individuals enjoying ourselves at a very prestigious event the night before which I didn’t invite you to.
Forgive me for taking you up on the offer of that freebie, more than once – the one which saw you go way beyond the extra mile, voluntarily – to help me progress with my career, only for me to then deliberately ghost once I had what I wanted from you.
Forgive me.
No, seriously, please do.
See, just like you, I’m in pursuit of my goals. I’m hustling; on the grind and I have tunnel vision. My focus is on achieving the next platform. The one that will propel me into the biggest spotlight; giving me the most amazing opportunity to realise my dreams of becoming the ultimate success story and, on my way, I’m stepping out on humility in favour of ignorance. Coincidentally, I’ve begun to act shady towards anyone with a small following across their social media accounts. I mean, if you have less than 5000 followers on Instagram, less than 1000 on Twitter and under 800 friends on Facebook, is there any point of me replying to your messages asking, “how are you, babe?”, or answering your calls for us to have a ‘catch up’? Maybe I don’t see the value in an authentic friend who has been there from the jump and isn’t like these suddenly-there ‘friends’ who only come around now they see me rising. Or, it could be that I do not respect your worth nor your talents which is why I take for granted the support you give me, so freely and so readily, when you make good use of your skills to benefit me.
I guess I’m out here thinking I’ve made it already, whatever that means, and now I’ve got my stush cloak on because, that’s how famous people roll, right? It’s difficult for me to get my head around how I’m supposed to act now that I’m making a few moves in a circle filled with people I’m not certain I can trust. But, wait a minute… Here’s the thing: On Twitter, they gas me up whenever I share a new link to something I did in the mainstream. On Facebook, they’re about anything and everything I post and, on the Gram, they comment telling me I look hot, I’m awesome at what I do and they rate me highly for the people they see me associating with; they got me feeling like I’m Beyoncé!
So, yeah. Forgive me. I’m famous now.
If you identify with, or can relate to, the ‘acting famous’ individual (whether truly famous or not) I hope this post has you *rethink your changed behaviour towards others (if you’re able to accept that you even need *to) and if one who is on the receiving end of such antics, step back so as to prevent yourself from feeling / being used, ignored, mistreated, let down, hurt, embarrassed and the rest.
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